I love you too.  -_-

You know what's funny is
How much I always worried about her
Now the footprints she left behind when she ran
Speak to me, saying

You were right, you were right, you were right

I guess he didn't want to see me enough
Maybe I said something wrong
Maybe I touched a wound, or killed a hope
Or didn't say anything at all
But when something's wrong with you,
Something's wrong with me
So I'm crying in my room
And trying not to scream
Because when I find myself at the bottom again
I see all the other things down here
Like how I should have gone to the last Anchorage
To be there for Shelby, despite the tears
I think about the past, which makes my stomach churn
And the girl whose sun I stole
I'm done.
He wants to run away
Sometimes he's fighting to keep alive
I'm afraid he'll go to Siberia
Without me this time
And, and, and
I have more
But it actually hurts to write them out
I guess it has before
I wonder how long you'll think I'm worth waiting for
I wonder how long till you slam the front door
I wonder how long I can keep up like this
But I know that you'll always be someone I miss
I'm sorry if I hurt you today
I don't know what I said
But when all I can do is lie in bed
It's awful hard to forget
I think I'm fading tonight
I think I'm fading tonight
I think that maybe I'm fading tonight

Lonely

I say a prayer for the girl holding my hand
She's lost
The girl across the room tells of how she can't trust her friends, they let her down
Where'd I go wrong?
My eyes dart to the door every time I hear a sound from that direction
But you're not coming
When I asked why she didn't tell me she was coming tonight, she muttered a sorry
She doesn't come for me
She doesn't see me
...
Another sound from the door, but you're not here at all

eight letters

It's okay
Just eight letters I won't say
Even though I really may
In a few days
Or yesterday
Don't you hate
Feeling this way
A bit of pain
Too late
Checkmate
Just eight little letters I won't say

Replaced

Saltwater

They say I loved you
But shock runs through my bones, and your temperature drops
Continually as they cover you up
And their gentle voices explain that you’re gone

They say I loved you
And all your beautiful colors have washed from your face
And all my friends dressed in black come to hug me
But the air is all off, like some tragedy misplaced

They say I loved you
How strange it is that they tell me you’ve died
Because if anyone knew how to live, it was you
You said you’d never grow up, and I guess you were right

They say I loved you
We were on top of the world just yesterday
Now your porcelain body lies still
To be put on display in a mahogany case

They say I loved you
Saltwater slips down my cheek as I return your flowers
But just as fate is something that cannot be stopped
So is a car flying at ninety-­four miles an hour

They say I loved you
But that’s not true
They say that I did
But I still do







(This was an assignment-- don't worry.)

Over My Head

Lying on my bed
Staring into space
The lines under my eyes
Are scars into my face
They're not going away
They're not going away
Maybe the ceiling fan feels a bit like me
Spinning and stopping endlessly
Except it doesn't have a heart...
Or a mind.
They're always fatal
Always blind
I never make it
Always try
These are the things that will spin in my mind
These are the people that eat my insides
Every night before I turn out the light
I walk my room to close the blinds
I grab both strings and hold them tight
So I can pull one at a time and see which one's right
But knowing him isn't like that that much
Instead of holding both strings I only get one
And the moment I pull it I spend all my trust
Because I don't know if it'll work out for us
I'm so worn out
I don't think I can do this
There's no catching breath
Bit too hard to get through it
Let me down, let me down
I wanted to rely on you guys
Yell at each other in front of me
Make me have to close my eyes
I don't have words to explain how dark this place is
But no matter how dark, I never sleep
Here is my checkmate number three
I love him more than he loves me